For years, I’d been at a job that I strongly disliked.
It wasn’t always that way.
For the first few years, I actually kind of liked it. It didn’t speak to anything I was really put on this Earth to do, but that kind of thinking was far beyond my capabilities at that time. My main concern was paying rent and having money for cafe lattes at Starbucks. Perhaps the occasional martini at Chateau Marmont on Sunset Boulevard in Hollywood.
And sleep. I loved my sleep. And this job allowed me to get into work at 10am.
I rose through the ranks of the job and things got worse. Once YOU were the guy and not just the guy HELPING the guy, everything rested on you. I worked in television in Los Angeles and when YOU are the guy, there is no going home until the work is finished. Air dates on television don’t tend to change.
So that means: who cares about your laundry. Or your girlfriend. Or your haircut. Or having a dog. Or servicing your internet problem. Who cares? The show has to be finished RIGHT NOW!! RIGHT NOW, do you understand?!
Things got progressively worse over the years and to compound the problem, I was slow at my work. I was good, but I was slow. It’s almost better to be fast and BAD in television. Most of my colleagues were much younger than me and they ran circles around me in the job, which required heavy technical skills.
I was working 80-90 hour weeks. Often under tremendous amounts of pressure.
Finally, things got so bad I asked myself a question. Mind you, this was 15 years after my career started. I woke up one day and said, “Well if I can’t figure out my purpose in life or how to fix my situation, maybe I’ll just do things in my limited free time that are FUN!”
But there was a problem. I didn’t know what I found fun anymore. Yes, you heard me correctly. I was THAT lost. I actually had to think for an entire week about what would be fun that did not involve foreign travel.
I decided it would be fun to find the best psychics in Los Angeles. Even if I failed at the goal it would still be fun. It would still be something to do. To take my mind away from my depressing job.
TO BE CONTINUED...